I've been unsure of how to write this one for a while. Today I broke down into a puddle of something I don't like to be. It began with kicking a trash can and ended with becoming paralyzed in bed because if I get up I may or may not bust into my bathroom and … Continue reading Emergencies And Asking For Help
One has oodles and oodles of time when living at a homeless shelter; this blessing in disguise can be utilized to complete long-term projects like making amateur drawings and paintings of arbitrary historical figures. Having already made an attempt to draw Abe with charcoal, I set myself to the mind-numbing task of creating and cutting … Continue reading CBTN Host John Ward Insults Abe Lincoln (Again) By Painting Him
Long before Fight Club's memorable utilization of an unnamed narrator - long before, as we're talking 1845 - there was, printed with revisions in The New York World, a short story called Ligeia; written, ostensibly, by a man named Edgar Allan Poe. Ligeia, the eponymous character, is a beautiful and intelligent woman, at least as seen through the … Continue reading The First Poem I Understood As A Child Was About The Inevitability Of Death
Re-Purposing Aesopica for Mental Illness/Mental Health Recovery THE OLD MAN AND DEATH Aesop was an ancient Greek fabulist, or story-teller - and also a slave. He lived roughly 2,500 years ago (born c. 600 BC); his collected works are know as Aesop's Fables, or simply Aesopica. These stories are pedagogical tools designed, like the parables of Jesus … Continue reading Aesop’s Fables and Mental “Illness”: The Old Man and Death
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CBTN host and CPS John Ward quotes from an excellent Maria Angell article on the corruption of the drug industry, the doctors who propagate this nonsense, and some thoughts on why mental "illness" is the mother of the mother-of-all misnomers.
How to use the CBTN proprietary P.I.M.P. method to get yourself out of manic, depressive, and mixed episodes.
CBTN host John Ward, CPS describes his and host Randi Fellows, CPS identical concurrent inpatient stays in December 2016 and how mood cycles might relate (as an analog) to the menstrual cycle, or human behavior cycles in general.
CBTN host John Ward, CPS shares an embarrassing "research paper" THE ANTHROPIC MODEL he wrote and sent to a number of university professors' private emails 2012.
CHANGE BUT THE NAME is honored to release it's first pilot episode of the INTERVIEWS series. Hosts John Ward, CPS and Randi Fellows, CPS sit down with high school student and film guru Olivia Smith, who at eighteen years old willingly opens herself up about her Bipolar diagnosis, attempted suicide, her self-awareness of her attraction to dark and disturbing films, and how it all ties together with her evolving and exceptionally lucid understanding of mental health.