One has oodles and oodles of time when living at a homeless shelter; this blessing in disguise can be utilized to complete long-term projects like making amateur drawings and paintings of arbitrary historical figures. Having already made an attempt to draw Abe with charcoal, I set myself to the mind-numbing task of creating and cutting … Continue reading CBTN Host John Ward Insults Abe Lincoln (Again) By Painting Him
Long before Fight Club's memorable utilization of an unnamed narrator - long before, as we're talking 1845 - there was, printed with revisions in The New York World, a short story called Ligeia; written, ostensibly, by a man named Edgar Allan Poe. Ligeia, the eponymous character, is a beautiful and intelligent woman, at least as seen through the … Continue reading The First Poem I Understood As A Child Was About The Inevitability Of Death
Genesis? Being and Time? CICADA 3301 plus 1 plus 1 plus 1...?
If you're like me, you're one of the ultra-high percentage of mental health diagnosees who smokes cigarettes. Clearly the obvious solution to this is to stop smoking entirely, but in being reasonable with ourselves we know this is going to be a long and arduous journey. If you're like me, you may also have been/currently … Continue reading Mental Illness Life Hacks: How To Save A Ton Of Money On Cigarettes
Bipolar hallucinations... Rick James ain't even close with "cocaine is a hell of a drug." And maybe, like my attending physician at Johns Hopkins some years back, you've come across a tab or two of acid or other "psychotropic substance." This ought to give you a pretty good idea of what hallucinating feels like; but the … Continue reading What Bipolar Auditory And Visual Hallucinations Feel Like
I try not to rage too often on here - I just don't believe in it. Nothing good comes out of it; not for you, and certainly not for me. And yet the temptation remains, particularly after a few minutes on social media, to unleash some inverse-abrosial hot sauce of doom on these myriad chumplestilskins … Continue reading I Know More About Mental Illness Than You Do… Says Everyone Ever
HEURISTIC OR MENTAL ILLNESS? THE ACT AND EFFICACY OF THINKING OF YOURSELF AS MORE THAN ONE PERSON Ever had that feeling that maybe there's more than one you inside your head? Mental "illness" hardly has a monopoly on this sensation - unless you insist on claiming nearly every genuine illuminato from present back to origin was … Continue reading Yourself Versus Your Self
Twitter is an absolute dream when it comes to #MentalIllness. In the interests of making some sense of this world-class clusterfuck, I'll be periodically highlighting and documenting some key categories of tweets. Before we get started, I'll point out a few things in case you think you'd enjoy following along or helping with the organization. … Continue reading The Dream World Of #MentalIllness On Twitter
In increasingly frequent operation of the CBTN Twitter handle (and life in general, when I find myself interacting with others) I’ve come across a troubling prevalence of the retaliatory statement “I DON’T GIVE A FUCK!”
The thing to which this FUCK! is not being given is an insulting statement or stigma, often unintentional or passively ignorant – mental illness isn’t real, or eating disorders are stupid, et. al. ad infinitum/naseum/triggered-episodium. I think you get the idea (and more than likely have both used this standard retaliation or at least borne witness to its implementation).
I here (with a metaphorical nod to the importance of primacy in being candid) admit without a shred of shame that I am myself a recovering addict of this type of categorical ‘self-empowering’ outburst, all-too-often for the reasons mentioned above: Fuck me? No, FUCK YOU!
The problem I came to understand was that…
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HERE'S A STORY, AND IT'S TRUE... DANIEL DIED TODAY This morning, January 24th 2017, I was sitting on the front porch of the homeless shelter, ground zero of the United Smokers Front doing what the United Smokers do best - smoking a cigarette. What began as a solo act (the USF moves a little slow … Continue reading Daniel Died Today